Know that I have willingly let go
To join a greater good
In hopes of adding to the sweetness
That makes it all move
In lightness and dark
In the spirit of all things simple
Pure and happy
Know that what I would leave behind
The only thing I would want to carry away
Your love
Your bold happiness
In the face of all that is complex
And challenging
That you claim with grace
A simple satisfaction
Know my only regret
Not to know family
With mother and child
Wife and home
As a father and lover
Know that you have given me enough
To last a lifetime
All of it so precious
That any fragment
As complete as the whole
Makes me humble
Gives me heart
Cures my soul
If I should make it back
Just know
That things will roll on
We will laugh and cry
In frustration and comfort
In understanding and with intuition
I will continue to love you
Lap up the joys of fatherhood
Learn more
Forget more
See more
Feel more
If I return to you on Tuesday
Know my flights were successful
And I thank whatever larger power
Nudges this to be so
Or allows it to be that way
And, if perhaps
This is not the case
And everything is willy-nilly
The universe has no order
And chaos is the prescribed theory
I still believe in the triumph of truth
The pursuit of goodness
The kindness of the soul
And the simple finality of that
In and of itself
It is unreasonable and elective
And that is acceptible
This too
Is all because of you
Every fraction
As great as the whole
Your love in pieces
Carries the message
In perfect harmony
Across any medium
And all that come after us
From us
Are better off
Than before us
Because of you
My love
My heart
My destiny
Know this
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6.28.09
