Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Sometimes

Because a hair stands up
Having the same cells
As skin
Akin to trees and floorboards
Creaking in tune

Because a tendril of smoke disappears
But becomes so many parts air
So many parts to remember
So many numbers to multiply
To get to the sixty seventh power of two
Minus one

Because out there lies a great road
An unanswered question
That you have forgotten
The bottom having dropped out before
And you now knowing that you're walking on air
And nothing can stop a Protozoa
But stillness

Because there are books that have burned
With your name in them
Not scribbled in a schoolgirl's cursive
But in bold typeface
Copperplate and straight
Rich dimples in stiffened pulp
all your joints aching
When your number was called
And it was a number you had never heard of before

Because silence is too much
A burden for some other grist
The next time through
All the buildings will have different names on them
Different letters
Different languages
But the same boldface promise
To be stronger than what is unknown
More firm and less loosey-goosey
More nose and character
Less marbles and swirls

Because trust is not sinewy
Because stems can hold their mass
Because triangles are magic
And seeds are carried by lesser structures
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12.20.11

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Boston

When the humidifier doesn't work
Or rather doesn't hush
The garbage trucks on Stuart
I am up again;
Listening to Satie
Breathing pure Fuji mist
In a glass tower
But from the top of every blackout curtain
Screams neon marquis light
Pulsing against the gurgle of moisture
And pattering of Erik and Olof Hojer
And I know they wish to occupy me;
My room, my furniture, my discontent
They wish to occupy me

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Under the satellites

People bring me cookies
Like I'm the Dalai Lhama
It makes me feel no better

Purging a full pot of beans
Into the toilet
Gives me the relief
I was looking for
Wasting food
For the first time
Made me feel like I was alive
Not undead
Zombiefied
Consuming everything
I don't like to vomit
But dumping food
Directly into the toilet
Makes me feel better
I can relate now
To the anorexic ballerina
That refuses to shave her pits
I do not shave my pits
I do not eat pits
I do not find pleasure
In the put of my stomach
But rather
An empty place
Where beans should be
But wine will fill
Just as rapidly
All for the better
Wine evaporates
Beans
Grow to stink
Like me
Like you
Like all of this that exists
Above the fold
And under the satellites

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Is this life flat?

Is this life flat?
I can't tell
At times
Twine
And others
Bow
Some day I will know
But for now
It's allow
Substitute or endow
I'm not sure how
But, wow.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Be Jodie Foster

Perfect your French like Jodie Foster
Hard like Jodie Foster
NPR head like Jodie Foster
Ghost with no body
Finding them or finding me
Postured like Jodie Foster
Hard to move like Jodie Foster
Stiff as Jodie Foster

Friday, March 11, 2011

not knowing
not wanting
not knowing what to want anymore
not wanting to know
not knowing what wanting can get
not getting what wanted
not gotten
not anymore
not anyless
same wanting
same gotting
same knowing
same wanting to know
same wanting what
same getting gotting got
same wanted
never knowing
never knowing what to want
never not wanting
never wanting to know wanting
never anymore got
never got wanted
never know anymore
same never
never same never
never same not